It's been a while since I last posted here... I've rarely had a downer like this in fact I don't think I have since I moved in with my Master. I don't know why I feel this way, or what caused it I just don't feel to good in my head. My sleep patterns suck lately too, to the point where I've had to start taking sleeping pills.
The sleeping pills work... but they seem to be giving me strange dreams, not always bad, but mostly. I feel that Master and I have been falling out a lot lately... and maybe it is my fault, who knows? it normally is that's all I'm saying. I hope that things start to sort themselves soon, I already feel like Sir is going to send me back up north. I hope not... It's a nightmare up there, I'd rather fall out with Sir every few days than go back there for extended time...
On the plus side though, Sir and I have been together for 8 months and 1 day today :) Not easy, but good relationships normally aren't! The creases are slowly being ironed out, but we have a lifetime for that I hope? I'm completely in love with him... I hope he knows this? I try my best and still I don't feel like I'm doing enough for him... He says I am.... I hope I am?
Anyway I will close this off because I need to take a bath and relax, try and make my mood better for when he comes home, I miss him when he's gone, and don't want him to see me this way again...
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